Okay, yeah, I’m definitely not giving this blog the attention that it’s accustomed to. Consumed with guilt, like any normal blog-parent, I feel obligated to write what I can to give the attention deserved.
Last time I posted, I wrote about transitions. With a suffocating amount of ambiguity, I wrote that I’m feeling my world change. Even since then, things have changed– life is happening fast.
It occurred to me that I’m struggling with material to write about because the direction my life is heading in is, like, really good. I’m nervous that if I open my overanalyzing flood gates, all of this fantastic momentum will freeze. The problem is, this evolution is all I can think about; thus, all I’d like to write about– I’m trying not to do that. So right now, I’m going to try to write about my life with the same discretion I employ whilst writing about others. I promise the juicy details will be written, but they need to stew a bit longer. Here come the cliff notes:
Writing with the intent of supporting my lifestyle has officially become a goal of mine. This declaration likely won’t surprise you (I’ve probably even said it before); but, I’ve only just allowed myself to own it. The revelation has been invigorating. I’m taking the tiniest of baby steps to actualize this new goal, and right now, that looks like applying to part-time, remote, writing jobs that have something in common with this blog. Yes, that is crazy specific, but I’m not trying to accept opportunities that won’t allow me to continue nannying or encourage passion-less writing. I am way fortunate to be situated as I am. In no way am I desperate to add anything lacking joy into my life– you might call that an official priority of mine as well… But that concludes the career portion of your update.
Socially, more change. Not in a loss of friendships-type-of-way, but in a we’re all aging and actualizing dreams way. We’re adulting, and our relationships are adapting to our new realities. We’re growing up and ebbing with the waves of life and whatnot. It’s neat, it’s life, and I’m embracing it.
Okay, so I’m also talking to a guy– I know this is the update you’re most curious about. He came out of nowhere, these thoughts are obviously my most consuming, and I feel like all of my past dating experiences are cementing me in their lessons. This is actually all I feel comfy sharing about it at this point, but I’m sure it’ll get written about in the future. I’m calm, I’m happy, and I’m going with the flow.
Life is good.