Ive been told that I have this habit of stating my emotions explicitly. Like, maybe I’m sitting in a hot tub with my friends and I’m feeling nostalgic, hopeful, grateful, happy, and content all at once. I will literally announce what I’m feeling because that moment is notably happier than the other 98.5% of my everyday life. The people around for these announcements are typically people I have big feelings of love for— and if you’re on that list, you understand how euphoric my happy moments are.
For as overwhelming as depression or negative emotions are for me, they’ve got nothing on Happy Morgan. Happy Morgan is me at my best. When she’s out, I am riding emotional waves of joy and meaning and love and perfection. It’s a high— there’s no better way to describe it.
This past weekend, I was able to take a half-day off work on Friday so that I could drive home for Fathers’ Day weekend. I’d only told one of my sisters that I was coming; so, it was a surprise to the parents. As I turned onto their street at 6 that night, I saw my parents in their car coming the opposite way– how about that for Divine timing? I pulled off a successful surprise, and it was so gosh darn rewarding to see how genuinely thrilled the two of them were to have me there. Happy Morgan arrived about 45 minutes after I stepped out of my car, and the weekend was so joy-filled that she’s still hanging out with me now.
I’ve been craving the lake my parents live on (where I grew up) like you wouldn’t believe. Usually when I have that feeling, I feel pretty guilty about it– it makes me feel spoiled and yucky. But, truthfully, that place and those boat rides charge me up and propel me forward like few things can.
So right now, I am all excited about where I am in life and all of the opportunities that are taking shape. Oh, I’m also being more mindful about eating and exercise to help my brain chemistry out. I’m moving right along– up and up and all that.
I need to say a BIG thank you to everyone who reached out to me in response to my last two posts. I also need to recommend that anyone who was worked up about or had an opinion on what that guy said, revisit the post, scroll down to the bottom, and read the comment from Tony Donk. Tony was one of the professors who took me and a bunch of other Education students to Liverpool (circa 2014) to teach British students for a month. His response to the post is so well-put and thoughtful, I haven’t been able to respond to it. I can’t say how much I appreciated hearing from him, and I truly think you all would enjoy the prospective he offers in his comment. He’s a pretty cool dude.
Thank you for reading and rooting for me! Peace.