My Purpose

This past July, I was well into my voyage of self-discovery. It couldn’t be but one or two months prior that my therapist helped me realize that I had absolutely no idea who I was. Truly. We did all these tests to identify my values because I couldn’t begin to list them for her. Early in 2017, we spoke a lot about my yearning to know what I was meant to do with my life. The thing was, how could I expect to know what I was meant to do when I didn’t know myself or my priorities?

That July, I heard about this guy who specialized in identifying your Soul’s Purpose. You’ve got to understand that while I filter everything through skepticism before I accept it, at that point, my friend and I had been regularly visiting a psychic medium for a year. I know, I know, you’ve got some sort of thought about that. Those thoughts are not what this post is about. I only mention it to say that I was pretty open minded as to how this man could know my life’s purpose without ever knowing me personally.

The first thing I did, then, was visit the website. There, I learned that a Soul Purpose Reading assembles clues left for us as we entered the world into a cohesive picture, so you can get a feel for your original intent for this Life. Soul Purpose Readings blend Astrology, Numerology and Tarot into a single system.  With Tim’s (the guy who does the thing) empathy and intuition thrown into the mix, your Soul Story clarifies. I mean, that was enough for me. I was familiar with Tarot cards from my adventures with the Psychic, knew a smidge about Astrology (okay, really just my own sign), and had no idea what Numerology was.

Well guys, Numerology is any belief in the Divine or relationships between a number and one or more coinciding events. It is also the study of the numerical value of the letters in words, names, and ideas. Before my reading, I emailed Timothy my full name, and the city, state, time, and date of my birth. From that, he prepared two hours of information about me. Really.

For the sake of brevity, I am only going to share the qualities of myself he deciphered. He did, of course, explain ALL of the Numerology, Tarot, Astrology, and Math as he went. He told me how he knew what he was explaining to me. If you have questions about the specifics as you read this, leave a comment, send me an email, I’d be happy relay the science behind this. Ready? Here we go.

The very first bit explained to me was that I am very down to Earth. I have this mind that goes all over the place with a need to make it tangible so that it all can be applied– I need to bring my high flying spirit down to Earth.

I also see things differently than most people. As it was described to me, my perspectives are upside-down when compared to everyone else. If I were to share all of my thoughts and ideas with the average person on the street, they’d think I’m nuts– I have a bit of an issue fitting in.

He told me that my life wouldn’t be a cake walk, and that I would encounter my fair share of rude awakenings (I’ve shared a lot of those with you on this blog). He told me that this will keep happening to me until I truly accept that life is ever changing and that I need not become stuck in belief systems. It’s super important that I realize that I know nothing (pretty advisable for everyone, actually). Tim went on to emphasize that it is critical that I maintain forward momentum, that I keep moving, and that I keep going up and up (for real, he used that phrase). I have to keep asking questions, learning, and maintaining balance. I came here to bring Light in. He legitimately said that allowing the real me to come out is my purpose, and that it was going to be pretty cool when it began happening (spoiler alert– it is).

At the surface level, patience and perseverance are my biggest obstacles (ain’t it the truth). Because I write a bit about Astrology, I will share that he told me that half of the planetary influence in my Natal Chart is in Scorpio. In case you’ve forgotten, Scorpio is the sign that no other feels as deeply or intensely as. Remember my first posts on dating? Dudes getting freaked out and calling me intense? Yeah, that’s that. The cool thing is, the key to our spiritual ascension (growth, aging, living your best life– whatever you want to call it) is EMOTION. Life is an organic thing and we need to be able to feel our way through it. Because I’m overwhelmed with feelings at every second of the day, my most crucial life lesson to learn is healing my heart. The whole going up and up/maintaining foreword momentum thing gets a little difficult for me when I feel too much and want to go back to a safe space.

Timothy went on to say that I am quite the dreamer. Surprised? No. Coldplay’s last album is literally called “A Head Full of Dreams.” Seems I’ve got myself one of those. As you can imagine, the rigidness of our world suffocates dreamers. It is imperative that I (and you) hold on to our creative power and optimism.

Above all other of the life lessons I am to conquer, the most critical is that I walk the middle path. What does this mean? It means that as I become self aware and activate my permanent learning gears, I’m going to want to save people from lessons I’ve already learned. He explained that I cannot prevent others’ lessons or pain no matter how hard I try. If I am initially successful, the lesson will just find them in another way. When I deviate from my path on these hopeless missions, I’m not honoring myself or my purpose of chronic self-discovery. He said the best thing that I can do is exude my knowledge and hope that others pick up my hints as they go. In this way, he mentioned that part of my soul’s purpose is teaching. Then, he said that I will learn the most from preschool aged kids (remember, he had no idea that I went to college for teaching, or that I had spent the years after with young children). My exposure to these kids is supposed to ignite my own inner child, and reawaken my openness, creativity, and love.

As we began to reach the end of my reading, he continued to explain how critical it is that I maintain my dreaming and ideology. He surmised that I would write about my spiritual travels and lessons in a way in which others could absorb. He said that with my gift of writing (by the way, I never told him that writing is a thing I’m okay at) I can distract people into reading my thoughts and ideas– which they can incorporate into their own lives. He told me that I have a good chance at becoming a successful author (whoa).

This man– who I’d never met, who knew nothing about me– helped me objectify my gifts and tendencies to see that the future I felt inside myself wasn’t so abstract. I no longer panic about my future. I don’t wonder if I’m doing the right thing or making the right choices. I’m focused on learning; learning about me, others, life, the world, acceptance, and mostly Love. I am comfortable, I’m growing, and everything he predicted would happen is taking shape.

I feel like there’s no way I could have adequately written this experience for you. I hope that you’re able to process the ingenuity of this reading, and feel comfortable enough to ask me to explain more of what you’re curious about. I’m pretty reachable in all the ways, and I would be so happy to talk to you more about this.

If you’re interested in your own reading, you’ll find Timothy’s website here. I’m so glad you read all of this!

-M

Ps. I’ve got a lot of dating updates for ya’ll. We’re shifting blog gears on the next post…